little proud duck
June 7, 2009As I leave my student life, I am now thinking about my future and dreaming about having my own women’s magazine one day. I don’t have a name for it yet, so now it’s just “Magazine”.
Then I started thinking about my past.
I’ve always been interested in school, and made sure I got all my A’s, but I was never interested in curricular activities, especially sports. I would write, or sing in the choir, or be in the Interact Club which had no interactions with the outside world whatsoever, or be the President of Girl’s Scout. But one thing I was truly proud of was my ability to charm my way out of PE. From primary school all the way to A Levels, I’ve had my period every single week.
University is where I truly grew up and was forced to stand on my own two feet, with daddy’s money in my bank account. I’ve met all sorts of people in my life, and learned so many things (your whites and your colours cannot mix!).
I’ve learned that bad relationships are part of growing up, and you should cherish all your past ex-es for teaching you how to be stronger, and contributed something to what you’ve become now. I’ve learned that frienships cannot be forced and there are such friendships that drift apart when you no longer have nothing in common, and that it’s OK to let go without hard feelings. I’ve learned that money does not come easy and you cannot take shopping for granted, and credit card statements are not to make paper airplanes. I’ve learned that cooking is fun and you can know if the oil is hot by dripping drops of water in it and it goes ppscchttttt. I’ve learned to clean chicken properly and to slap beef steaks around the house to make it soft. I’ve learned that the toilet floor doesn’t just magically clean itself and you can’t cheat by just pushing all the dirt to one side. I’ve learned the art of pressing 10 long sleeve shirts which means putting the ironing board in front of the TV.
But most of all, I’ve learned that life gets pretty lonely without the people around you. You need to keep in contact with your parents everyday, you still need your sister to guide you, you still need your boyfriend to tell you you’re beautiful, and you still need your best friends to tell you your ass looks fat in those new jeans and you should return them pronto.
Yes you’re growing up and you may think you’ve got it going, but don’t let go of the little girl within you, who still needs to love and be loved. Once you do, there’ll be no more spark of innocence, and no one to remind you of the good childhood memories that built you today.
I used to be a Chinese boy
What makes me whole is my loved ones, and I have truly found solace with this amazing group of people I have now. If you’re reading this, I just want to say thank you for being in my life. ๐
Quite possibly your best entry yet. I am relieved to know that friendships don’t die on just me! I could identify with a lot of the things that you have very kindly mentioned, but a bit curious about the water-in-oil part: I love, love, love cooking but hate, hate, hate frying. Doesn’t hot oil spit and splatter like there’s no tomorrow when it comes into contact with water? I normally look at the oil – you could just make out pretty patterns (ripple-like) when it is hot enough :-)\
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And 100% with you on not letting go of the little girl inside.
You cracked me up Viv
this is really touching. a part of me almost teared up but ive got a roomate beside me so if i start to cry, it might be a bit weird for her! haha. btw you may have looked like a chinese boy when you were young, but i was once the most naughty 4 year old girl with long locks and an evil smile. ask aiman! ahahah. the PE part is funny. i guess i can relate as well =p
hey proud duck.i came across your blog few weeks back from one of ur friends which is my friend.(so complicated). well .i just want to say that your blog has helped me one or two things to get my life back where it used to be.i think ive done most of the things im not supposed to do and life was so hectic and so crazy.while i was trying to get all my pieces back , i read your blog.and it actually helped me to be more positive in life and its okay having bad years(ill say its part of growing) and i should start thinking the good things ive missed and cover them back!. so proud duck.thanks! ๐
Woman, this sounds very pre departure-ey. When are you leaving London for good?
You’re not leaving I won’t let you.. staging a coup at Heathrow.
hey vivy, not sure if u remember me but i’ve been reading ur blog once in a while. just wanted to say i like your writing style and the things u write about,it’s almost always a joy to read. \
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enjoy the rest of ur time in london! ๐
i love your blog!! the content is interesting.. and its soo sad, when you have to become an adult and say goodbye to the student years . T.T i’ve still got many years to go but still. hello responsibilities. ๐
thank you everyone, for all the kind words ๐
vivy, ur face time baby macam daniel! :)))
dat pic is sooo daniel azim shah!
Wow, both Daniel and Mariam really are your doppelganger when you were young!
vivy, Daniel 100% looks like you!
I seriously thought the pic on top-right was Daniel. Seriousssslyyyyyyy