asyura day
December 26, 2009Religion is a sensitive topic because there are many versions of it.
Some people just have different ways of practising their faiths. Some people think their way is the best and imposes it on others. Some people criticise others’ ways of praying or their general way of living.
Islam, to the non-Muslims’ eyes is one demanding religion that imposes so much on their followers. To some extent, I agree. I love Islam, but there’s no reason to hide from this fact. We can’t do many things, can’t eat many things, can’t dress in many types of clothes, can’t eat certain times.
But everything has a reason, and before criticising people’s ways, we should read up and understand why it is like that. The history, the reasons behind it, the logic to a forbidden act. Once you understand, then only you can agree and truly love Islam…and that’s the process of understanding everything else in this world, anyway. Why we have to cover our heads, why we have to pray many times a day, why we fast, why men can take on four wives — all these should not be attacked until you’ve taken time to understand why the rules are there.
Some of you may agree, but let’s face it, most of you won’t.
And that’s just it.
Because religion is FAITH.
It’s what you believe in.
It’s between you and God, the power that you pray to and believe in.
Some people say that “It’s between me and God” is a lame excuse for not doing some of the things Islam asks of Muslims. They say you can’t pick and choose what you like in a religion to do what you like and omit what you don’t. It comes in a package. Just take it or leave it.
I do agree.
But being human, it’s difficult sometimes to practise any religion to the very core, like how our ancestors did thousands of years ago. Times have changed, humans have changed, and technology has changed. We know we’re doing sins everyday, but I know a lot of people who think some religious laws are obsolete and should be updated.
Religious authorities would ostracise these people as apostates. What is written in the Quran is what it should be, whether or not times change.
Who knows the right answer?
Only God knows.
What we can do as mere mortals is to just do good deeds, do what we know God likes and avoid what God hates. TO THE BEST OF OUR ABILITIES. And just be nice to others, not cause havoc and not attack other people’s religions. Just carry on your business and try not to disturb others while you’re at it.
Because religion is just that; YOUR OWN FAITH.
I am not trying to preach Islam as the best religion in this world. Not because I don’t support that statement 100%. It’s just simply because I’m not qualified to preach it. Let’s face it, I may think I do good to others etc, but I am not what you’d call the ideal Muslim in hijab and veil covering my head.
“In due time,” I tell my mother. Her answer is simple, “You never know when God will take your life.” I worry, of course. I do want to cover up one day, but it is to my own weakness being drowned by the modern world, that I hope to be strong enough to wake up from hopefully soon.
I have no qualms about what Islam asks of us, but one thing I am finding really difficult is to cover my head. I totally believe in covering our arms and legs and bodies, but I’ll be brave enough to admit that the head is another story. I can give you a million excuses, but God knows the reason better; simply because I’m vain.
I’m sure a lot of girls can relate to me when I say that we girls love our hair and I don’t understand why we should be denied the right to feel and look good. We enjoy experimenting with different hairstyles and we like how it can change our looks instantly.
And let’s face it. Women need reassurance. Of their beauty, of a lot of things. So, if their hair and beauty can only be shown to their husbands, will this be enough? How many husbands will really take time to appreciate their wives after a long day at work? Will the husbands go, “Oooh nice hair, honey! My wife is beautiful”? Or will they just go, “Make me tea” and plop on the couch to tune in to Victoria’s Secret Angel fashion show on TV?
Now that it’s written in black and white, they seem like petty reasons; ones that are just not good enough to defy what’s written in the Quran. Sigh…
I wear the hijab on ocassions and whenever we perform umrah in Makkah. And I gotta say, it feels good.
But….I also enjoy not wearing it.
That’s my dilemma.
I am learning to accept the rule slowly and I really want to be a good Muslim. I don’t mind the other stuff, but it’s just this one thing that I’ll need time for.
I know a lot of people who preach and can recite surahs from the top of their heads. But then night falls, and you’ll see them in nightclubs with a beer bottle in hand. Or wearing the skimpiest clothes with the lowest cut top and the shortest skirt.
It’s all a little bit odd, really. So I don’t want to be like that. That’s why I will not say anything.
BUT…
If you know something good, you should share it.
So, I’d like to remind my Muslim friends that tomorrow is Asyura day. 10th of Muharram, the day where a lot of good things happened to Muslims.
It’s the day that;
- God created the universe, heaven, Prophet Adam and Hawa
- God forgave Prophet Adam when he repented, and put him in heaven
- Prophet Ibrahim was born, and also the day he was saved from being burnt by King Zamrud
- Prophet Yusuf was freed from jail
- Prophet Yaakub’s vision was cured and he was no longer blind
- Prophet Ayub was cured from his skin disease
- Prophet Yunus was freed from a whale’s stomach after 40 days and 40 nights
- Sea was split into 2, making way for Prophet Musa and his followers to run from Firaun’s army
- Prophet Sulaiman was given a big and strong government to lead
So, as Muslims, we should try do as many of these as possible;
- Fast tomorrow (on the 27th of December 2009)- the reward is like performing hajj and umrah and dying with syahid.
- Mandi sunat (shower to cleanse ourselves) – which is something we should all be able to do!!
- Be good to orphans
- Visit sick people
- Donate to the poor
- Recite surah Al-Ikhlas 1000 times – doa will be OK-ed by God!
- Wear celak (eyeliner!!) – symbolically to protect our eyes from bad things
- Cut your nails!
- Give food and drink to people – reward is that God will give you a drink of water during the day of Akhirat and with that, you will never be thirsty again
- Recite a lot of zikir and salawat
Not that hard, is it?
Well, it’s up to the person really. Let’s face it, people will laugh because they’ll ask “How on earth would you know whether all those things happened on this day?”. The truth is, unless we can turn back time, we can’t.
So, there’s just one answer.
“Faith.”
People can say Islam is this and that, ridiculously outdated. Even though I make mistakes (and still am every single day) and I’m not the best example as a Muslim, I still choose Islam as my way of life with all its demands.
Because I know God knows better.
And I also know, heaven ain’t cheap.
I hope some of you who are covered can share your stories on how you started and whether or not you faced any dilemmas. Maybe it can speed up the process of me covering up!! Haha.
salam
i really adore ur mother, pd
and i pray that God will shower u will a lot of barakah to speed up d process. amin.. π
hey there.i chanced upon your blog by accident. and since then, i just couldn’t stop myself from reading each of your entries. (you bet, i dug deep into your archives. oh no, im a stalker now sheesh :P)
anyway, i like this entry sooo much, seriously. i do wear hijab and am thankful enough that i started way back in primary. I was just a curious kid who couldn’t stop wondering what its like to have a piece of cloth covering her huge head (no no, the size of my head wasn’t the reason haha).
I remember quite vividly how I asked a friend of mine who was covered to take off her hijab JUST BECAUSE i wanted to try it on HAHA. since then, alhamdulillah, i have always been in love with hijabs.
But i gotta say it was quite a bit of a challenge in high school as i was in an all-girls school. the aurah between girls made me neglect my hijab at times. but again i cant thank my parents enough for always saying this:
“it’s up to you to wear the hijab. but we don’t see the point of u wearing one if you’re not properly covered.kenapa pakai on-off je ni?”
you know. that kinda thing. at the end, i just felt the need to cover up. IMHO, going out of the house without a hijab on makes me feel naked. i akan sentiasa jadi conscious of the way i look and all.
and true enough, at time i do feel more respected by the public though some annoying bunch thought i was a conservative maniac.
trust me. at the end of the day,people are more interested to know who you really are, regardless of the hijab u have on. thats the reality im facing. its not that bad π
SALAM.
I never know today is Assyura day until i read your blog.My parents had been fasting since first muharram, but i never know. No body told me. Now i felt a lil lost.But i thank you for this post. Salam
Thank you for sharing PD. Appreciated.
this post meant a lot PD..thanks for the reminder=)
by the way, do not force yourself..InsyaAllah the day will come and you’ll cover up one day. you know yourself well and the most important thing is Allah knows it too..It all depends on us in whatever we do…you take care..and salam maal hijrah..i hope it’s not too late..
Omg, thank you for sharing V. I have the exact! same! dilemma!!! HALPPPP
hey,your post this time has really touched home.
admittedly, i am never one to really cover my head fully, meaning that i wear hijabs on an on-and-off basis. also, i still tend to wear clothes that are more towards ‘boddy-hugging’ types,as my mum calls it.
i never really wanted to wear hijab at all initially, but it was my parents’ wishes that i would atleast TRY to familiarize myself with it,that i agreed to wear it,though with a great amount of Reluctance.
Over this past couple of years though, i am increasingly starting to keep my hijabs on on most part of the time, feeling as if somewhat ashamed on the days that i choose not to cover my head.
The main reason why i feel so motivated to keep trying to cover my head is one reason that my friend has told me: as a sign of gratitude to God, to our parents, and to our future husband to be blessed with such beauty. i have learnt that all that is beautiful in life are only temporary and can easily be gone at God’s will,so we must always remember that these blessings are actly God’s possesion, and we are in no position to flaunt it or to be vain about it,since its not ours to begin with.it is only ours to be entrusted upon to make full use or to abuse it!
so,however hard it may seem, however IMPOSSIBLE it is to find different style of clothes that can cover your Aurat(believe me,im still struggling with this too!),the importance of covering up is parellel of those other ibadahs such as fasting and praying: it teaches us submission, reminds us of Allah, and it is a form of Gratitude that we give to Allah.so we cant let weaknesses get the better of us; vainity gets in the way of covering up,laziness to perform our solat, or our desire to eat during fasting!its all the same,if u put in into perspective π
Good luck!and remember, Berusaha kemudian Tawakal.Dont force it upon yourself, but you should definitely give it a TRY, and doa for Him to open up your heart to it!
hey! i came across this blog from farahana’s
i started wearing the hijab abt a yr ago, n its a pretty big deal for me cos my mum, grandma etc dont wear it. actually theyre both blonde, but thats another story.
i started for the two main reasons. i wanted to do all that was wajib, cos frankly, im not baik enuff to delve into the sunat stuff yet. also, personality-wise it kinda suited me cos essentially im a goody two shoes, so why not dress like it.
advantages of wearing: ppl r generally nicer to me, esp girls. feel less responsible when mat rempit start whistling. definitely feel that ppl talk to me more due to personality/humor (i hope). enjoy breaking the stereotype of malay-covered women who r timid n dont speak much!
disadvantages: look/feel older – im only 24 but i feel 28 haha. had to give up many clothes, but i managed this by slowly giving away stuff and simultaneously buying more stuff.
all the best! my biggest advice wud be to decide on it, then take a year to do some shopping/thinking before u dive into it.
I would say i have the same dilemma too, but on the other side of the coin. I am wearing hijab, or at least, cover my head almost all the time, but am constantly thinking of opening it. It’s not because I am uncomfortable, not because I am not ready, in fact, I like wearing it. But I realize, when I open it, I become another person. I become more adventurous, more daring, and all that. It is thus true that hijab protects you from a lot of tempting things. When I have it on, i feel more responsible to care for myself and my behavior. Less carefree is the word, perhaps. So, when rebellion takes control, and i want to be ‘care free’, i would maybe wear a hat with bits of hair showing. at times, i would cry: why cant I be the person I am without hijab in my body that is wearing one?? For I like the carefree person I am without hijab.
so, right now, i am incorporating the feeling when I am uncovered, when I am covered, in a balance.
I guess my point is that, everyone’s journey to Islam is different, as is each person’s journey to hijab. Yours may be trying to put it on, mine would be trying to keep it on. That is why, like you said in your post, FAITH is the one strong pillar of submission to God’s words. We may not feel fully justified as to why hijab must be worn, but He created us, and He knows his creations best. Which is why, our faith should lead to TRUST in His words. Trust Him when He says we should wear hijab. It doesn’t even have to have a reason, just trust in Allah. And try to aim for it, insyaAllah. I pray that your sincere niat would be rewarded in Akhirat.
hey pd, you are being very honest on this post π
I have been wearing hijab ever since. I went to Islamic school when I was in std 1 and 2, and so my journey in school has always been me in hijab hehe.
Dilemmas? What are you talking about? It takes less time to wear hijab than to fix your hair (through painful observation and waiting for friends blowing, rolling, tying and whatnots their hair, I could take a nap while waiting)Haha. Talking about vanity, wearing hijab gives your more options for colours! You can wear blue scarf to match your lense colour (lol). And I guess you will learn to play with your scarf colour and eyeshadow (like I did), there are so many colour experiments you can do!
Only, when you are so vain and still want to cover your head (like me) you would wear nice dress with skinny jeans, and some people especially Malays WILL give you “the look”. They will say behind your back how inappropriatly skinny your jeans is, how your dress are showing your silhouette and they will say something like : better don’t wear hijab if dressing like that. But you know what, I don’t agree, and I don’t care what people say. At least I do wear.
As for with non-malaysians non-muslims, they are actually quite curious and supportive! I constantly being asked why I fast and why I wear scarves like hundreds of times, so I already have a scripted answer haha. Only it is hard for me to answer when they asked: why is she who is a muslim doesn’t wear hijab? Ermm. I gave the “its a free world” reason, but I know it is wrong. It’s complicated, isn’t it?
s.m: thank you π my mom was so excited reading your comment hehe
HFI: i really like your positive attitude and i admire you for being strong
ALL and aneesa: you’re welcome π
fatunk: thanks for the kind support! salam maal hijrah to you too…belated! hehe
eliza: we’re in this together! haha
layla: your comment is eye-opening. I like that you said beauty is only temporary, and is not ours to flaunt because it comes from God. My mom always tells me God can take away your beauty anytime (accident, scars etc), so don’t ever be “riak”
dania: wow! i really admire your guts…wearing it even when mom and grandma don’t. i guess i’m a goody two shoes too (in terms of going out and dressing etc) so the final step is really to just cover my head (well and get married of course, to avoid all those dating sins! hehe ok not funny)….and i like your advice on shopping.. will definitely do that! hehehe
maryam: i totally understand what you’re saying…that’s what i’m afraid of too…but i guess wearing hijab shouldn’t stop us from being bold/adventurous/daring….i think you should keep on being yourself even with the hijab…
kaykaygal: i LOVE your positive attitude about the hijab…and thanks for the fashion tips…never really thought of that…like you said, “it’s a free world” isn’t an excuse because covering up is wajib…sighh..
at the end of the day, all of you have helped me in some sort with your comments… have got me thinking a little bit more… i know wearing hijab is wajib, but it IS a big step because i’ll have to change a lot of things about my lifestyle…am going to have to adjust to that thought, and will have to work towards that
Hey pd! I really like this post, scary at first. It’s so honest and I can totally relate to this!
I started wearing my hijab over a year ago. Yes, it was hard at first. It used to be once a week, then twice a week…. Then one day, I started to notice that even going to the corner shop (even to beli mee maggie), I must wear my hijab, or else I feel ….ermm…naked! Strange but true. Friends thought it was a phase, but each time they asked me how come I started wearing hijab, I just told them that my “one day” came. A few years ago, I too asked the very same question to a dear friend. I asked her how come she started wearing her hijab and I told her I couldn’t see myself wearing a hijab until I am slightly ‘older’. And all she said was “Your one day will come and when that one day arrives, you will know”. Then, I had NO idea what she meant….and fast forward to today, I began to understand what she meant. One day it just happened.
Additionally, another friend told me once that just because she doesn’t use a hijab doesn’t make her a bad Muslim, as she still performs the other things which are Wajib to attend such as performing the daily 5 prayers, fast, not to say bad things about people, not to be derhaka to her elders, and so forth. Just because she’s not wearing a hijab doesn’t make her a bad Muslim right? She added on more about girls wearing hijab sometimes can be so deceiving (which I will not say in here). She’s just taking one step at a time. We all are.
I hope by relaying my story, it will somehow relate to your situation.
I pray for you so your “one day” will come too. Insha Allah. Baby ducky steps π
Take care.
PS- My fav hijab is by Hermes. Not because of the brand, but it sits nicely for a few hours! If only I have a money tree in the back yard, I would buy one from every season!
As u know, i wore hijab like all the time when i was studying in Auckland. I was a more decent girl back then, proud to be a Muslim and loved the questions received by the non-Muslims on it cos it felt like im contributing to Islam whenever i explained the rationale, advantages, etc to them.
Then, i was home for good here in Malaysia. It all changed. The environment here is different. Not wearing hijab is like a normal thing. It started off when you went out to pasar malam or kedai depan rumah not wearing it, for all you know its gone everytime you were out of the house.
The dilemma is definitely there. I stil wear hijab to the office or kenduri and whatnot, but most of the time i dont. And for that, ive to deal with people’s ill perception and judgment but at the end of the day, you just refuse to wear it just because you want to shut their mouth.
If u ask me, i wish id have the guts to keep on wearing it, and not just when i feel like to. That is why you need to be mentally prepared in making this decision. Cos i understand how hard it is to be consistent. For me, just dont leave the daily solat even once and like you said, be nice to others. Its better to not wear hijab but you keep your prayers full. I have a lot of friends who wear hijab, but do not fulfill the duty in praying 5 times a day. Both categories are not what a Muslim should be, but if i were to choose, i’d rather be in the first category.
All the best V.May Allah bless all of us especially the ladies and open our heart to start wearing hijab consistently and feel good about doing it for Him. Ameen..
lol at comment #12: “PS- My fav hijab is by Hermes. Not because of the brand, but it sits nicely for a few hours!”
REALLY?
Salam. I don’t know how exactly but somehow I bumped inot your blog and I am very glad I did! I went through your archives reading and reading and I find what you’ve written funny, interesting and somehow making me realize the essentials of life.
As for my hijab story, I have been wearing it for almost four years now but I didn’t start off wearing it out of choice. Ever since I became a “big girl” my dad was all Oh you have to cover your head and everything and I hated it. I hated covering my head and I hated him bugging me about it. I used to wear it only during family occasions when I could not bear him nagging me! I always thought that hijab was for older women who didn’t have any fun in life.
But later when I was 14 we made umrah and I saw the different ways the women wear it there and I eas mesmerized by it. SO after I got home I started wearing it slowly to certain places but never with my friends. When I did start to wear it when I went out with them they really appreciated it although they were non-Muslims. My friends were the most supportive and they understood why I wore it even better than my Muslim friends.
Finally I started wearing it everywher and I cant go out without it.
But I would advice you to really WANT to wear it from your heart. And wear it because youw want to. Not because you have to. I have a friend who wore it in school when I did not. I really respected her for that because she had the guts that I didn’t have. But once we joined college she said adios to her hijab and that was when I started wearing it.
So its okay to take time. Eventually wearing it is all that matters π
I pray that Allaah guides you and puts that niyath in your heart.
Much love π
PD,
i love ur post π
and becoz i didnt read ur blog yesterday..i missed hari asyura π
Wow, all your readers comments are really inspiring. Thanks for sharing your stories other readers. =)
I remember my cousin. She had this dream that night where she heard a voice asking her something like, “why are you still now covering your head?” A very strong voice and she was very fear of the voice. And the next day, she went to work covering her head completely.
She said she always had this intention to cover up but she wasn’t sure when to begin but after she had that dream, she knew that was it, that’s the sign and it’s her time to cover up. No more hesitation.
And for more great news, her two siblings followed her step. Now the three of them are all covered up.
Now, we’re happily shopping for selendang together! π
I pray that Allah guides you and other girls who are facing the same dilemmas. Amin.
hello vivy! i know it’s been a while (SKBD days eh!?) and i just recently came across your blog. I liked what you’ve written about this day and how you see faith – truly commendable. However I would like to just remind you and those who read this that Asyura is also a day of mourning for our Shi’i brothers and sisters. It is the day of the Battle of Karbala where the grandson of the prophet Husayn died: it should be a day of mourning for all as it symbolises the unfortunate divide within the Muslim world. Anyway… just thought I’d mention it.
Keep up the good writing..
Hi V, you know I am a loyal reader of your blog π BTW, I find a good article about your topic. Do take ur precious time to read it π
http://www.zaharuddin.net/content/view/898/72/
this is a very interesting post! i havent any interesting stories (or dreams heheh) to share but i hope all goes well for you, i agree with emily about the “one day” thing. but for now, i guess the first step is that you are thinking about it. so good for you. and yeah all the other comments were pretty interesting as well. π
i can suggest a book for you to read… “Does my head look big in this?” by Randa Abdel-Fattah.
from my point of view…wear it when you are truly ready.because nowadays i see people wear it today then tomorrow gone.
i started wearing hijab later than my friends but that’s the advice that i got from them. wear it when you are ready. and alhamdulillah i have been wearing hijab since that day.
and you are on the right track..thinking of wearing hijab is the first and right most step ever.
Dear PD,
I have always been a silent reader but today i cant help but to leave a comment because this entry is SO interesting.
When i started wearing hijab, i took it off after a month because i feel that it restricts me from doing things that i love like performing on stage, playing sports, wear stylish clothing, go to concerts etc.
I realized my mistake was that i let the Hijab defined me and i felt the need to conform to the stereotype that others had defined for girls in Hijab.
You can still be youthful, be talented, be stylish and most importantly be YOU in Hijab. I realized that there was nothing that needs to be sacrificed in the first place and i have been wearing it since then.
i guess it is a process and it is ok if you make mistakes along the way. I guess you will know that you’re ready when you feel like u have nothing to lose wearing it.
Hye PD. I don’t really know you, but I have been your silent reader since forever. Hehe. I like the way you write down your POVs, very witty and might I add insightful. I felt the urge to share with you my journey after reading this particular post.
To tudung, or not to tudung?
I started wearing the tudung when I was in Sec 4, despite being the only person doing so in my family. My mom and 3 older sisters (who don’t cover up) accepted my choice of dressing and supported me throughout. But, the reason I started wearing the tudung was not because I got the calling,or my one day just happened. I did it for all the wrong reasons. Because my then ex-boyfriend wanted me to. Yes, stupid. I know. I hated the idea of covering up, because I thought I looked prettier without the tudung. Hehe. Vanity is a women’s middle name yea?
So one day I stopped wearing the tudung. You might think I felt liberated and all that, but truth be told, I felt somewhat inadequate with nothing covering up my hair. Alhamdulillah I have been covering my crown ever since. It has been a few years, and still counting. InsyaAllah.
Phew. Very long narration. Point is PD, you are on the right track. You have been thinking, and it’s all you. No one has been preassuring you (or at least you haven’t succumbed to any preassure). InsyaAllah, when you are ready, you will cover up, and for all the right reasons. π
Have faith!
ohh gosshh,we’re so on the same boat…and my mum says the exact same thing to me nearly every single day,hehee..anyways,let’s just hope insyallah the day we have the strength and will power to cover up comes soon yeah π
i`ll b praying for u!
may ALLAh gives u strength to change…pray for that all the time!coz HIS is the one that never disappoint us when we hope..like the hadith says if i`m not forgotten
sedepa kamu mendekati ALLAH,ALLAH akan mendekati mu sehasta..jika kamu berjalan mendekati ALLAH,ALLAH akan berlari mendekati mu…
ade sambungn but forgive me for my kelupaan..
all the best dear sis!
Salam,
On As Syura:
If you refer to Shia Muslim, 10 Muharram is celebrated for an entirely different reason, namely the killings of Prophet Muhammad’s heirs and their families in Karbala. Read http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Day_of_Ashura.
It is interesting to learn about Shia part of Islam as it is really foreign (at least to me). Residing in Shia Islam country now gives me good opportunity to see things first hand.
What I can say is, I CANNOT pray (jamaah) in their mosques. Yes, they are THAT different!!! Among other things.
Regardless, let Allah be the judge. We can only strive to learn and be good.
On Tudung:
I respect people who can do what I can’t. I respect women who wear tudung correctly. If I were a girl, I would probably not wear it. I found it even hard NOT to wear shorts in sports, let alone cover my whole body.
Faith is faith. But I do believe there are reasons for everything. The fact that I don’t know what they are does not make them non-existent.
Nice write-up.
assalamualaikum PD.
i’m very interested in this post.
Alhamdulillah u have thoughtof it. for that, Allah gave u pahala, coz everything starts with niat ryte? LillahiTaala, insyaAllah
I first started wearing hijab when i was stndard 4. because i saw my bestfriend wearing it and i tot she looks pretty wearing it. but of course, i did it on-off because during that time, it’s not compulsory yet for me.
LOL~
then, when i was in standard 6.. it became compulsory.
because of you-know-what. But, for some reason.. that particular year was the year i was thinking of taking my hijab off. I guess that was when syaitan started to whisper bad nothings to me because it is now sumthing compulsory for me.
and guess what? the devil won. i DID open my hijab.
but it all changed when my mum came crying at me saying “why do you have to take-off your hijab now? Umi tak nak anti tanggung dosa. umi dah ajar halal haram.. pandai2 lah anti apply dalam kehidupan anti”
it really shocked me. to see my mum cried because i took-off my hijab. masyaAllah.. i was scared that i would never be able to smell the scent of the paradise.
nauzubillah.
eversince that day. i wear my hijab everywhere.
and like most comments.. i feel naked without them when i’m in front of ‘bukan mahram’
but then again, i’m not perfect. i sometimes still have trouble trying to dress as a proper muslimah.
PD, i’ll always pray that one day you will cover-up. insyaAllah
try to find ALLAH’s guidance. coz it wont come to those who doesnt seek for them.
you are already one-step foward. π
my ustaz once said this in my class.. “takkan masuk syurga seorang ayah itu,selagi anak-anak dan isteri dibawah tanggungannnya tidak menunaikan kewajipan islam,termasuklah menutup aurat”
eventhough there are times when me,being the typical rebellious daughter,everytime i think back of what my ustaz said,
i just gave in. π
this is the very least i can do for mom and dad
simple as it sounds.
it was 13years ago,when i was 10 years old and naive enough,i know i love my parents and that’s the least a 10years old child can do.and alhamdulillah until now π
insyaAllah PD,the time will come for you too.keep trying.keep searching,keep learning. π