February 17, 2010


I just spent the last hour fixing my blog.

I logged in just now, and suddenly it went blank and I thought it was a virus. I couldn’t login, I couldn’t add post, I couldn’t edit, I couldn’t do anything.

My heart probably stopped for a nanosecond, I wanted to cry!

I was downloading a new plugin feature to spice up this blog and make it more interesting for you, and after that I couldn’t access it myself! Stupid feature! Never again!! You are just going to have to settle with what you see now FOREVER!

I didn’t have a clue how to fix it. It also doesn’t help that WordPress is for pros who speak HTML in their sleep. But I told myself to breathe and just calmly explored my host website. Finally clicked a few things here and there and voila, everything is back to normal.


This is like how I feel right now….sooo happy.

*Let me just inhale and exhale a few more times*

It’s true that you won’t fully appreciate something until it’s gone.

For a second there, I thought this was it for Proudduck. Because I couldn’t access the admin page anymore, there was no way I could update my blog anymore. All my hard work writing and uploading photos, and all the amazing comments from you guys; it will all be immortalised up to the Opah is Superman post below. And that will be the end.

This past hour of me fighting to get this blog alive again made me realise how much I love my blog. How it has brought me to you, how it has “matured” me, how it has brought me comfort in down times, how it has documented my life this past year and a half.

There are times when I don’t feel like blogging anymore and I question whether or not I’m doing the right thing exposing so much of me. It’s time-consuming (especially because I usually update daily) and can get pretty frustrating when people not only don’t appreciate it, but even condemn it.

But I just had a preview of the possibility of me losing Proudduck, a pet-name I have tirelessly built. And it sucked.

Blogging is something I never thought I’d do, and yet, it has now become something I’m really proud of.

Really, never say never.