getting nervous

September 9, 2018

Wearing satin silk scarf from dUCk and batik top from Radzuan Radziwill, from FashionValet

I woke up in the middle of the night last night and suddenly it hit me. Omg Baby S is coming next month.  Next month, I’m going to be a mom of 3. Suddenly I got nervous. Am I going to be a competent mom? How am I going to be fair to Baby S when I have two other kids who also want my attention?

It’s all happening so fast. Well actually, not really – I can’t wait to be done being pregnant. If you’ve been following me from Daniel and Mariam’s pregnancies, you’d know that I’m no pregnancy poster child. Haha. Just two days ago I told Fadza I can’t wait to get the baby out haha. #teaminduce #onlywhendoctorsayscanornecessary #havetoputdisclaimerhehe

Anyway, just having those thoughts. I’m pretty sure I had them too the last pregnancies, especially nearer to when the baby is coming. Gahhhh, gonna make lots of doa. It’s really happening!

I turned to Fadza and told him how I felt.

“Sayang, you realise baby’s coming very soon… and we’re going to be outnumbered. Are you nervous?” I asked him.

“Nah, I’m cool.” He answered nonchalantly.

“Really? Not even nervous??”

“Baby’s going to want Mommy for a while. So yeah, good luck to you, though,” he said, kindly adding a pat on my shoulder.