one of those days

September 22, 2017 • 38 comments • 24699 views

I got stressed with the kids today.

I’ve been meaning to finish my work and I need a few hours of uninterrupted time with my laptop. I can’t seem to do it in the office because there are just too many distractions and people wanting to talk to me about something. I can’t seem to do it at home because Alex the Lion and Gloria the Hippo are saying something on the TV and the kids keep asking me to watch and listen because “it’s really really really interesting, Mommy.” I tried to cordone myself to a quiet corner and start doing work but I think it’s just a mother’s guilt that she just can’t shake off – when your kids are crying or wanting you, it just breaks your heart to do other things and ignore them. Even if you want to focus and you’ve got people helping you, there’s always that little guilt that pangs your heart. In 10 minutes, you’ll be on the couch with them watching King Julian sing a song in the forest.


daniel’s first day at “big school”

September 11, 2017 • 32 comments • 32839 views

Sigh. I dreaded this day but it had to come as the life clock never stops ticking.

“Dear Vivy, we are pleased to inform you that your precious little firstborn hero genius of the world most handsome wonderful boy who loves his Mommy more than Daddy, Daniel Azim Shah, has been accepted for admission into our school for Academic Year Reception. His first day of school will be this Monday. We would like to welcome Daniel Azim Shah and congratulate him on his admission. We welcome him to adulthood where he will no longer require the love of his mother.”


missing for 5 hours

September 4, 2017 • 33 comments • 31003 views

Let me tell you a story of last Friday.

Not only were we super jetlagged from the San Francisco trip, 1st of September is also a lot of events for us. And all meaningful ones, not like social need-to-show-face kind of events.

First of all, it was Raya Haji so we had to go from mosque to both parents and inlaws’ houses. In the morning also, Mimak and I drove to the hospital before Raya prayers because Toots was scheduled for a c-sect (baby was 4 kilos guys… I’ve never been so thankful to have short genes) that morning. Not only was it going to be the new baby’s birthday, it was also my sister’s birthday and my brother in law’s birthday. It was also Friday which means Fadza had to go for Friday prayers so I was waiting impatiently for him to finish because I needed to see Toots who had already come out of OT as a mother of two boys! Daniel also starts school on Monday, so we needed to squeeze in time to buy white school shoes (couldn’t do it on weekend because Mimak was getting married!). We also had a family dinner that night to celebrate Idzuan’s birthday. On top of that, the new dUCk Cosmetics store opens the next morning, so the team was waiting for Fadza and I to come for final check of the store. I was super excited for this and wanted to squeeze a trip to Pavilion in between all this family madness!


#duckcosmetics

September 2, 2017 • 10 comments • 22264 views

It’s 1.53am.

I just got back from the dUCk cosmetics store (that’s right, we are launching cosmetics now – gahh I really hope you follow me on Instagram because if not this would be the first time you’re hearing of this haha). The rest of the team are still there because there’s still so much they want to do. #perfectionist #anal

I’m left with this huge love for them. I’m a wee bit proud of the team and myself too. AH WHATEVER WHAT IS THE POINT OF LYING TO YOU. MY HEART IS BURSTING BECAUSE I FEEL SO HAPPY AND PROUD AND EXCITED. I’M SO PROUD OF THE TEAM!!!! AH MA GADDDD WE HAVE A NEW DUCK STORE AND IT’S MAKE UP I LOVE MAKEUP AND WE’RE THE FIRST LOCAL BRAND TO HAVE A FULL FLEDGED STORE. IN PAVILION. OMG WHAT IS BIGGER THAN CAPS LOCK TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS?


my stanford experience

August 30, 2017 • 26 comments • 25171 views

“You shouldn’t be nervous, you should be excited!” my dad reminded me at the dinner table before my flight.

 

I had mixed feelings going to a graduate programme in Stanford University in Palo Alto, California. Paid a lot of money to enroll and was going to take in all that I can, but I still felt a little nervous. Leaving the kids left me with guilt but I’m pretty strong in that department. My issue was more on the actual course and flashbacks of shy undergraduate Vivy came to my present mind. What if those matsalehs speak better than me and I get embarrassed? What if they ask me to get up in front of hundreds of students to give a presentation? What if they realize this woman actually doesn’t know much and I tarnish Malaysia’s good name? And the golden question of all, what if they can’t see me because I’m so tiny? I mean, I’m already short in my own country. Now, imagine a country where people are double the height of that tall Malaysian friend of yours. Gosh, they’re going to literally pick me up and put me in their pocket, aren’t they?