saturdays like these

August 21, 2021

Have I mentioned how much I love this girl?

If you don’t follow me on other social media platforms like Instagram and YouTube, you probably don’t think I love her very much. She’s almost non-existent here in Proudduck haha. Sorry baby, Mommy got lazy to blog – you were (are) a handful I have no time to do so!

In fact, I think I should do a rundown of each of the 3 kids to you sometime soon because well, it’s been a while. Their interests change every week, I can’t keep up!

As for Sarah, she’s turning 3 in October. How time flies, huh?

Had the best morning with her today, just us in the room because Daniel and Mariam were having online class outside. We sang and talked, but mostly we watched her eat a chocolate macaron and smear it all over her face. Gahhhhhh she gives me so much joy. Can’t believe she’s going to be a big sister soon!

Ahhh Saturdays like these.

to go out or not to go out?

August 21, 2021
If shoes could talk, they would be asking “WHERE THE HELL IS THAT GIRL AND WHY HAVEN’T WE SEEN THE SUN FOR OVER A YEAR?!”

So the government has lifted some bans this week and now dine-ins are allowed and malls are opened. Happy with this news because we can open all our stores again, the the retail team can finally have some normalcy back (but bless them, they’ve been volunteering at vaccination centres while stores were closed – I’m a proud boss!).

Normal Vivy: would already be putting on shoes the moment the announcement was made. World, here I come!

Today Vivy: *rubbing pregnant belly unsure of what to do*

There is nothing normal about isolating at home, nothing normal about covid, nothing normal about what is happening in this world right now. On one hand, it’s great news that people can slowly get their life back, but on the other hand, I’m still so worried about contracting covid.

Technically, I’m fully vaccinated and honestly, I’m so sick of staying home all day. The other day, Fadza drove me around KLCC just so I could wave to it. #blessmyhusband And yesterday, Mimak sent me a selfie from KLCC – she went to my favourite piece of heaven on earth – Kinokuniya. How dare she go without me.

Because of the pregnancy, it’s definitely a dilemma. I’m going to take it one day at a time and constantly consult the doctor. It’s just too scary the stories we hear about positive pregnant women (although most of the ones I heard of were unvaccinated), so till the cases go down, I guess baby and I will just have to wave at you from our window till after confinement. #okthatsoundscreepy

To other pregnant moms out there, I feel yaaaa! Sending lots of hugs and imaginary ice cream to you right now.

*looks at shoes* Not today, gang.

pregnant and vaccinated!

August 10, 2021

You know that feeling. When you keep checking your phone every few hours to check, when your heart longs for it to light up. You wake up every morning and the first thing you do is check for it on the phone again. Food tastes bland, sky seems gloomy, mood is sombre… nothing is right until you get that beep from your phone.

That was me for a while. When suddenly, one day, I looked at my phone and there it was.

The notification read, “Your vaccine appointment is on the 18th of July 2021.”


Oh my god, this amazing feeling. We all can agree the most romantic date we would have in 2021 is our vaccination date. I’ve never refreshed my Mysejahtera app more than I have any other app. Going through my Instagram timeline was so depressing because it was just a whole bunch of people (my friends, apparently) showing off their 1st vaccination dose, then 2nd vaccination dose… and me, nothing! People were on their 2nd and I hadn’t even gotten my appointment for my 1st. Is this what jealousy feels like?

Me: Look at all these happy people getting vaccinated and showing it off on Instagram. Ugh.

Also Me: Wheeeeeee.



I had my second dose two days ago so I thought I’d blog about it so I can remember this experience. I mean, generations after us would just read about covid in history books! We lived it!

Let’s be honest. All of us were scared of this vaccine, even skeptical of it. Are we sure about this? What if I turn into an alien? Does Bill Gates have anything to do with this? But hmmmm I won’t be allowed in other countries… how will I go to London? Ok take! Haha. Fine, that shouldn’t be a reason but it played a part… I ain’t lying to myself – this is my blog, my safe space, I can be honest. What made it even scarier is that I’m pregnant and people were sharing scary stories of premature births/stillbirths after the moms got vaccinated – I kept thinking about the baby and my worry increased. But covid cases were also increasing, the variants are mutating and equally, there were scary stories of pregnant women not surviving covid without the vaccination. You either get scared of the vaccine or you get scared of covid – which one you want?

This was, of course, only a choice I could make.

I did my research. I spoke to doctor friends. And most importantly, I consulted my own doctor. All of them said I should rush to take it, and that my baby won’t be affected. I reminded myself this isn’t the first vaccine ever made, and those scientists know what they’re doing. I had no issues taking all the other vaccines, why be so skeptical about this one? I need to trust, I need to educate myself, I need to not just protect myself, but also the community around me. Everyone should get vaccinated. I decided to register for the vaccination and left the rest to God. Bismillah, all the way!

I shared both doses experience on my Instagram so I won’t repeat it here – did a Reels. That’s right, I’m cool.

Both vaccinations were super fast, super painless (I HATE needles so please trust me on this). I was so impressed with how Malaysia rolled out the vaccinations so fast, and I’m so thankful because it’s free too!

Now, let’s talk side effects.

Some get fever, headache, fatigue, other major effects, so most people will be prepared and take the next couple days off to rest. I did the same, cleared my schedule, got new books – ready to live in bed for the next three days.

1st dose: NOTHING! No side effect at all except the usual arm sore that lasted two days. Baby was also kicking like normal.

2nd dose: Mild fatigue that made me sleep at 8pm and shocked the whole house. I woke up at midnight bright and chirpy to a house full of snoring people, which was really boring. Usual arm sore that lasted two days also. Baby was completely fine, kicking me without permission as usual.

Slightly disappointed I didn’t get to be all lazy in bed for three days, haha. But the arm sore was a pain in the a** guys. I was so scared someone would bang into it so I declared “Mommy’s Arm Bubble no entry zone” to the kids, and I could only sleep on my right side. I couldn’t lift up my left arm without feeling pain, so I didn’t wash my hair for days #luckyfadza. Good thing is you can ask your husband to take things for you, lift things up for you since you can’t lift your arm. Highly recommended to “prolong” this arm pain for a week. He wouldn’t know cos “every body is different”.

So, that’s it guys. One for the books! I’m so proud that I’m fully vaccinated now and I hope you guys are/will be too!

Booking flight to London now. #iwish

mellow yellow

August 6, 2021

Yellow, in case y’all can’t see me from Perlis.

This week has been tough on my body – constant nausea, constant headache, and I had to take vomit breaks in between meetings. So I decided to put on a cheerful outfit to trick my mind into feeling more upbeat. It worked! Totally felt the sunshine cum Pikachu cum Digi Mascot vibes.

I’m reminding myself to always focus on the good, as always. So I’m gonna list down some things this week to pat myself on the back on:

  • Settled all performance review for my direct reports this week! Because I’m temporarily leading some departments till the new leads come in, I have 13 direct reports right now… #pengsan
  • Settled 2022 product plan for dUCk with team, and scored some really cool collaborations.
  • Did not cancel any meetings, despite wanting to vomit at my laptop. Still pushed through, with camera turned off (for other people’s sake… haha).
  • Had an amazing virtual session with one of the heads at Inditex (Zara) and hogged the Q&A session. #asian
  • Read 2 books.
  • Remembered to feed the kids. Except for that ONE lunch, whoops. Thank god for leftover pizza…
  • Cleared up the mountain of boxes in front of my house entrance. Been meaning to do that for weeks, so that’s a big pat on the back. I have floor again, guys. #happytears
  • Cut my nails!

Ok that is all. Hoping next week will be an even yellow-er week!

women’s handball

August 2, 2021

So I walked into the living room one night and saw Fadza watching the Olympics. Women’s handball happened to be on. And he was sitting on the couch watching intently.

Obviously there’s only thing I got from here.

He doesn’t love me anymore.


He’s enjoying this isn’t he? 8 (or 12… or 10) muscular women in shorts, sweating and jumping up and down catching a ball. That’s hot land.

What a jerk, I thought as I rubbed my pregnant belly and waddled as fast as I could towards him (which isn’t very fast).

“You like them, is it?” was literally my greeting.

Completely shocked, he asked “Errr… the athletes?”

My completely rational hormones took over and wailed, “YOU DON’T LOVE ME ANYMORE.”

And I didn’t speak to him for 2 days.

Get your wife pregnant, guys. It’s fun.